Friday, 28 December 2012

Dent in the air



Missing someone
is like hearing
a name
sung quietly
from somewhere
behind you.
You find
yourself breathing
 just enough
to make a
small dent in the air…
and I don’t think
I could really
tell you why
am I missing
you so much
that the air
around me
seems like
a huge depression.

Catch on Cologne




The last time you were seen was when you were walking through a museum. A museum of thousand skeletons robed with skin and scars. No. It was the kitchen of a famous restaurant, rolling noodles on a shiny fork and flossing through the front teeth. No.
It was the grocery section of a huge store picking up stuff for your friend.

Last seen riding the subway, literally, straddling its metal pole, clutching your bags with one hand. You were wearing two pairs of socks unchanged in the last one week. You were wearing clothes that were drunk on the rain and some snow. This was how you travelled.

I was the mannequin in the storefront window you looked towards, truly stimulated by the lingerie design. Your eyes crinkled with a gooey thought of me. I was the tissue paper in your denim’s left pocket until that dog found it, sniffed it and tried to lick. I was the door knob you swirled twice. No. Thrice. There I could feel a heartbeat on your fingertip. I was the newly put up glass on the wooden window of the blue house. You walked past and I chased your feet for few steps and laid myself out rightly open. You looked busy on the phone and I looked lucky.

The crumbles of the sandwich you ate while smoking your not-so-favourite brand. The blank A4 paper jamming herself through the printer, afraid to talk to you. The beggar. Sat with a hat bumming for more minutes. When I collapsed at your feet, you continued with algebraic equations in your mind and refused to look at me. The third phone number printed over an advertisement, stuck on the white wall. The small dent on the railing fixed along the river Rhine. The solitary lamppost standing diagonally across the huge Christmas tree adorned with sparkling lights.

I was the bumblebee buzzing around your head with no agenda other than a good time. And you were last seen entering the airport, boarding your flight and flying in the night sky.

Friday, 30 November 2012

Handing over a flock of words




Perhaps there
I see a day
I shall say it.
Shout it.
Scream it.
Or whisper it.
This day my voice
Will know the volume
As it finds the ears
Those need the words.
The words
that have been
pending to be heard.
I shall say them
Even if the voice shakes
But it’s the shaking
That means it’s worth.
I shall say it
Because the moment
Will not be stolen
However
It will convince me
To surrender it over
gladly.

Friday, 2 November 2012

Cradling in hope

She is unbloomed.
Not young enough
To know everything.
She likes to believe
That everything
Is short-lived.
Just like this
Dark night
That matches
The colour 
in her eyes.


She has a bed
To lie down,
A pillow to rest
Her frightened head
And a sheet to
Imprison herself
From a creepy
Pair of hands
Approaching the
Growing curves
On her body.


She tries firm enough
To leave no gap
For the sinister to enter.
This entire summer night
She breathes in
Snowflakes.
Staring through the
Cotton sheet
At the shadow
On the opposite wall
With a will to blink
Not even once.


Escape is what
She wishes for
Clutching her
Fingers crossed.
For her
The freedom
Lies in being
A hassock.
And she learns
Liberty is not given
It is simply taken.