Forgiving is hard. Forgetting is even worse.

They told me on the day one you’re a monster

So I loved you under my bed

After fifty six days, you packed all your stuff,

Took a shower and moved out.

After fifty six and a half days I am waiting

to begin to learn how to ignore

Because now you’re the elephant in every room.

While I’m trying not to think about you, about your name,

everything around me is singing it.

Like a song I can’t get rid of.

The entire night we both spoke a language that neither

Of us could understand.

And I don’t know if it sounded like “please hit me”

I wish I knew you’d cross the line

I could have quietly erased it while you were not looking

But you crossed the line

Cleared your throat

Kissed you knuckles

And took it wherever you wanted

Punched in my face
Broke the windshield

Made me bleed

You should know I bleed enough in 12 months every year.

I don’t need your kind contribution.

So a part of me asked you to leave,

The other made you stay in my head

and I hope we treat each other better this time.